No more dairy. Makes me sick. So my diet yet again has changed ontop of being a vegetarian. Makes iy alot easier to get away with no food and if I eat to much just a glass of milk and it all comes up

I might be lactose intolerant. Which may work to my advantage. Also I have stopped binging but im still eating to much I have about 2 normal size meals a day maybe alittle larger but not by much.sometime ill have some left over candy but that is stoping cause it is chocolate and is making me sick. I dont know my weight but I dont think I have lost. This week im going to try and move down to one normal meal and one small one. Oh and my jaw hurts to much to eat so I dont eat my food as fast(it really takes about a hour). That makes me feel fuller sooner. Im having a lot of trouble sleeping though so have found no energy to work out. Im a fatty. And I might be getting sick so poo there. I dont think ill lose more the 10 pounds by thanks giving so im sad about that. And the reward is in the trash cause my mother got me a bra so we will do pants for the reward. Considering my other ones are getting a tad bit baggy that might be a better idea. If I see my cousin on new year I want to have lost alot of weight to rub it in her face so by Christmas(yule for me but somepeople dont know pagan holidays) I want to be max of 140 preferably 130 and 120 is my hope but it might not happen so I wont get my hopes up. Sorry this is really random and all.over the place >.< that is what my brain is like right now. Oh and I spent over half of my paycheck in less then a week. So 40 of whats left will be saved if I lose the ten the other is for gas money -.-. Im so broke its sad.

To those of you who really read my posts. I am sorry I have not updated. Iv been on and off the wagon. Did lose a good 5 pounds. Sadly I think I gained it back with my week long bing. Sigh. Im going to start out slow with 800 cals a day and a minimum of 30 min work out. In each meal im going to include an apple to keep me full and hopefully stop the bing. Also im cutting out a ton of shit I shouldnt be eating. Like butter, junk food ,oils and soda. You know the normal shit. Also hopefully I can incorporate some situps in at random parts of the day. I did drop a jean size by the way. Also there is this boy. My head is so rattled on if he likes me or not. One second he will be all over me and stuff then the next im not there. It hurts cause just when I finally start to get over him he pulls me back in. I want to yell at him to stop but I cant. God dammit. We will call him S. Ill make a side note of who people are later on my blog. So right now I have made a goal for me to reach by thanks giving. If I lose 10 pounds I get a new bra 15 and I get a new bra and pants too 20 pounds and I get all that and a new jacket I want to at the very least lose ten.